"I think one of the most wonderful parts of heaven will be all the time we get to spend with the people we loved on earth, but didn't get enough time with."
- Allison Robbins
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Sunday, October 26, 2014
Saturday, October 18, 2014
I'm Losing Control...
As I enter into this next phase of my life, I'm facing the realization that I'm losing control - and it's a little scary! Today as we drove out of town, I relinquished my driving privileges and as a method of calming my nerves about it, I brought along a magazine to read. Lol! It didn't help as much as I anticipated. I constantly found myself looking and checking the mirrors or secretly glancing over at the speedometer. Since I wasn't in the driver's seat, I would at least attempt to control the radio or the temperature in the car.
What I found was what should have been a nice, relaxing 2 hour ride, turned into an intense unnecessary over alerted, non-enjoyable experience!
WHY?! The answer was simple - I was fighting the fact that I wasn't in control; I wasn't in the driver's seat. My mind began to wonder and I landed on the thought that if I can't lose control of a 2 hour car ride and be okay with not being the driver, then what else am I going to fight? Hhmmm....
Losing control is not always a bad thing. Then I glanced in the back seat and noticed that my mom (who is terrified of riding in cars), was enjoying a nice nap. I was instantaneously envious. After a few moments, I chuckled to myself and realized that this car ride could be related to my encounters with God. He's a much more skilled driver than I am and He knows exactly what's ahead and around the next curve, but because I can't control the speed and change lanes as I would like - I find myself constantly over alerted and uncomfortable.
It's okay to lose control to the one who has the ultimate control. So today as I prepare myself to relax on the drive home, I also willingly give control back to God and take a restful nap.
What I found was what should have been a nice, relaxing 2 hour ride, turned into an intense unnecessary over alerted, non-enjoyable experience!
WHY?! The answer was simple - I was fighting the fact that I wasn't in control; I wasn't in the driver's seat. My mind began to wonder and I landed on the thought that if I can't lose control of a 2 hour car ride and be okay with not being the driver, then what else am I going to fight? Hhmmm....
Losing control is not always a bad thing. Then I glanced in the back seat and noticed that my mom (who is terrified of riding in cars), was enjoying a nice nap. I was instantaneously envious. After a few moments, I chuckled to myself and realized that this car ride could be related to my encounters with God. He's a much more skilled driver than I am and He knows exactly what's ahead and around the next curve, but because I can't control the speed and change lanes as I would like - I find myself constantly over alerted and uncomfortable.
It's okay to lose control to the one who has the ultimate control. So today as I prepare myself to relax on the drive home, I also willingly give control back to God and take a restful nap.
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